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Woken up again this morning. Alone. I can’t fall back asleep. Racing to get some water. Dry, cracked, and needing refilled. I hold my hands together and pretend that their our hands. Lean pillows up against my back to feel support. It’s almost been a year. I’m still here.
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Getting strong. Eating 50 hard boiled eggs a day. Drinking whole milk. Eating my Wheaties. Push-ups. Pull-up. You name it. I’ve had enough.
Photos: Katie Krulock
Styling/Model/Writing: Sadie Shoaf